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Still Life With War Part 1: Nightrunners

 

Thinking of Yemen, as always, the home of my heart, where so much of who I am today was born, mash’Allaah. War cannot be imagined, it can only be lived, and remembered.

And remembered…

tonight I saw
nightrunners
again
corner of my eye
visions
a hand splayed
over tree bark
head, shoulders
crouched
not to spring
but to listen
I pray as I approach
knowing our paths
have to cross
sometime
please let him
let me by
this once
tomorrow
forever
remembering
cold night
behind mud walls
hearing
sandalled feet
run by
or worse
creep stealthily
up
fabric against stone
so close I can feel
his heartbeat
so cold
huddled under
layers of true dark
no streetlights
to give even a hint
wondering
is the window too small
please let it be
let him be too big
try to remember
please
did I lock the door?

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8 comments

Jena on March 21, 2015 11:14 am

This.

Khadijah on March 21, 2015 12:02 pm

Thank you, Jena. This was a tough one to share.

Amina Bint Yusuf Knuckles on March 22, 2015 11:25 pm

Asalaamu Alaikum wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatuhu,
Jazackallahu khair for sharing this, so beautiful mashallah. Sometimes the wars seem so “out there”…it is important to realize how it effects people, and effects people closer to us than we think.

Khadijah on March 23, 2015 1:48 am

Wa Aleikum Assalam wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuhu
It’s all become too impersonal now, mash’Allaah, and abstract. Once you’ve experienced it, though, you never, ever forget, and it becomes your place to share the story with others, insh’Allaah, so that they can understand as well.

Umm abdurahman on August 6, 2015 6:51 am

Asalaamu alaikum wa rahmatullah sister. Thank you for sharing that in which Allah has allowed you to experience, with those who may be treading a similar path or a completely opposite one.

Is there an email I may contact you on to seek an advice? BarakAllahu feek

Khadijah on August 6, 2015 2:16 pm

Wa Aleikum Assalam wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuhu
I have sent you my email address privately, insh’Allaah

saddiqua on August 27, 2015 11:41 pm

Assalaamu alaikum wa rahmatullah may Allah bless you and your family aameen. My heart and dua,thanking Allah for your current safety go out to you mashaAllah. Living here in America and having never experienced the constant threat of war makes me feel more for the families harmed by such calamities. May Allah grant you continued safety,security,and serenity aameen

Khadijah on August 28, 2015 12:57 am

Wa Aleikum Assalam wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuhu
Alhamdulillah, BarakAllaahufeekee. Alhamdulillah, the entire family is now here in the States in relative safety.